It's 1030AM, and it's pouring down raining here in Jacksonville. I'm
laying in bed next to my husband with the window up listening to
pounding water droplets hitting every nearby surface. I close my eyes
for a second to take it all in. Despite everything going on outside these walls,
work, a hectic day, doctors appointments, the pending homework, I feel tranquility.
Here in this moment I'm able to truly reflect and be my most purest self. Breath
hot lol, hair sticking up, my once gelled edges are frizzy, black
smears from yesterday's eye liner, Drunk on you by Luke Bryan playing
in my head and I'm still me. I'm still diva! Lol Just a basic diva
right now lmao. My week was ok. My husband and I celebrated our first
wedding anniversary on the 12th, school is picking up and ADT is still
ADT. The highlight of my week thus far is this moment. I'm able to
slow down and be still.
The rain is coming down hard and steady, I just wanna go run through
it lol. Why is all of this relevant???? Because there was a time when
I wasn't so happy with my life. Wounds that hadn't healed completely,
broken relationships, communication issues, not praying like I should,
slacking in certain areas.... I'm reflecting. Last year was fun, it was
life changing, and lesson learning. This year, I'm learning to let
things go. Accept things as they are, and accept things I can't
change. Forgiveness. I just wanna be a better me. In 2016, I want to
be closer to God. I'm starting to pray more. I'm learning to let go.
Friendships that aren't contributing to my life in a positive way, I'm
letting go. Situations that happened in the past, hell the past
period, I'm letting go. My future is too bright to look back at the
shadows.
When I say "keep it 100", it does means that everything I say is gold
or that I know all. I slip too. Sometimes I don't keep it all the way
100. Sometimes I have to follow my own advice and sometimes I don't.
But I can admit to my faults( sometimes later rather than sooner lol)
I'm a work in progress. I can be hard headed and take the rough road
but I'm man enough to admit it. Keeping it 100 isn't just about being
honest with people. It's also about being honest with yourself. It's
about knowing you can't always be honest with people. It sounds crazy
but it's the truth. People say they want the truth but then get mad
when they hear it!
I often look at myself through other's eyes. And people would be
surprised to see the difference! I'm viewed differently by my family,
friends and my husband. Sometimes I sit and think, well which version
am I? I'm still discovering myself. I have a strong sense of who I am
and where I wanna be, but sometimes I question myself. People see a
slew of confidence, and sometimes I see the mountain of insecurities
and issues I have with my physical appearance. People see intelligence
but sometimes I see the opposite. I wish I was as Flawless as I say.
Truth is, I'm just like everyone else. I have issues, dark thoughts,
hopes and dreams.
Drip drip drip...it's still raining and I'm wondering to myself if
there's a point to this Blog....I feel like the things I couldn't let
go is being washed away. It's harder than you think, I've held onto
pain for so long, I sometimes don't know how to be happy. I'm about to
be 28 in a few weeks. This year excites me. I feel more determined
than ever. I don't have time for negativity and bullshit. I will be a
better me, a better husband, a better friend, a better writer...The
past can't hurt me anymore. People around you or not around, who
threatens your today with yesterday's bullshit isn't worth having in
your life. Pray about it and let it go. Fuck what people think they
know about you, pray for them and let it go. Stop concerning yourself
with shit that has nothing to do with your goals.This year is about
positivity and growth. I'm still listening to the rain, but I'm no
longer still. It's time to start the hustle and bustle of this day.
This is more of a diary entry than a blog lol I don't remember much of
what I said, I was just speaking my mind. Thanks for reading....and
keeping it 100 with the real mr Clark! Lol time to go from basic diva
to top notch ;)
Saturday, January 23, 2016
Sunday, January 10, 2016
ADVICE
So, the thing about advice is. It’s subjective. People ask you for advice and really don’t want it. Then why in the hell do they ask you may say/?….Because they want to just vent on the shit that’s on their mind! Your friend doesn’t want you to tell him how much of a useless asshole his boyfriend is. He just wants to vent. Your friend isn't able to tell him these concerns or issues to his face or properly focus his frustrations, so you, the trusted friend, must bare the weight of your friend's relationship issues. And you’re expect to sit there, engage, nod occasionally and when the shocking part comes, you’re supposed to go….GIRLLLLLL that’s fucked up. “Oh no he didn’t”. “Well, Damn!!”. People just want to be heard. But the minute you truly insert your feedback, and join the bashing train. Deep inside your friend’s head, they are a bit insulted that you’re talking bad about their lover. Or when the shit is done hitting the fan, you're expected to forget this conversation and be excited and blissful about their relationship.
People often turn to me for advice and it means so much to me that they value my opinion, but what people have to remember is what I'm saying is MY opinion. What I tell people is based off what I WOULD do. Or what I have done in the past. I let my friends know that it does not represent what THEY should do, or make what I say right. The decisions and choices I’ve made over the years have worked (or not worked) for ME. I like to take a step back, evaluate what I’m being told and provide constructive feedback to the people that ask and truly want my opinion. Who am I to tell someone what they SHOULD do. But even I have to catch myself sometimes.
You also can’t take advice from everybody. What makes a person truly qualified to tell you what you should do with your life? Every situation is different. Similar is not the same. If your man cheat on you and y’all been together for 6 months, and you ask me what you should do because you know my man cheated on me, but we were dating for 6 years….See how that can be different. There is levels to a situation. No two incidents are the same.
I’m not saying don’t seek advice, but just take it in with an open mind. What a person tells you isn’t definite. It’s just relative to the conversation. And the same goes for the person “giving” the advice. Don’t be ‘round her telling people “WHAT THEY SHOULD DO” or “WHAT THEY NEED TO DO”. You can only speak for yourself and what YOU would do or have done.
In my opinion, married folks shouldn't take advice from single friends or family (especially one’s that have never been married) How in the hell can you advice me on what I should do about my husband when you don’t know what it means to even have one!!! No shade but it ain’t no comparison boo-boo. That’s just me though. Even advice from married couples. I don't think anyone can really comment on a marriage. What goes on in a marriage is that couples' business. How you gon tell them what works for them??? No couple is perfect and no marriage is the same. Don't tell me what I should or shouldn't do for my husband (especially when you don't have one) or what I should or shouldn't let my husband do based on your opinion. All in all, be mindful of what you spread with your tongue. There is after all, life and death in the tongue. Stop feeding into drama and breath positvity and real life into situations….and that’s keeping it 100!
Monday, December 21, 2015
G-Code
I exhale with anticipation. The crowd around me is very festive and lively. I can here other conversations going on around me. Yes, I'm being nosey. There is a couple to my left, the girl is going on and on about her day, and the guy is listening but it appear to be bored. Across from me is a group of friends excitedly talking about the holidays and how hungry they are. Just as they mention something familiar my Iphone goes off with a text message from my friend. The message reads that she's parking and will be in shortly. I sigh with relief, because I too like the group of friends is very hungry and my friend has had me waiting for about a half an hour. Before I could dwell on her apparent tardiness she comes breezing through the door. Dressed head to toe in winter. We live in Jacksonville, FL so it's about 62 degrees out and this chick has a scarf and snow boots on. But all in all, she looks lovely. "Hey boo, sorry I'm late" she says, walking towards me. "No problem" I say, instantly forgiving her lack of punctuality. She sits down next to me and starts going on and on about how her boyfriend was the reason she was late, and she'd further explain at the table. I sat just like the couple to my left, listening as my friend went on and on. I really wanted to hang onto her every word but she was beginning to talk in circles. "Clark, party of two!" Called a nearby hostess. And not a minute too soon.
We got up quickly, and I tried to avoid the stares of people near me, who are still waiting. Sorry y'all, your time is coming soon, I thought to myself. We got to the table and ordered a round of Cosmos. I've only known her for about 9 months, but she's so genuinely sweet, it's no wonder we're friends. She's quickly become one of my best friends and I feel as if I've known her forever. Her positive energy is exciting and she's very supportive. I need more friends like this. We met because she was crying at work one day. She then told me her life story, explaining how her last relationship ended very badly and how she was cheated on and he was mentally abusive. She then found out he was sleeping with her cousin and got the cousin pregnant. She didn't even get the chance to dump him, he left a note and changed his number. It was such a fucked up situation. She continues to tell me, she's late because her new boyfriend of 6 months wanted to put it down before she left and she was sure if she left it hard, he'd use it somewhere else. "I'm so happy with him though, I don't think he could ever do that to me, I want so bad to fully trust me, but there's just something about him that makes me a bit cautiousness" she says. "I'm happy for you boo, just take it slow, and when am I ever gonna get to meet Mr. Wonderful, you haven't even told me his name" I said. "Oh, maybe one day. He's kinda funny acting about gay people. And I wouldn't want him to disrespect you" she says. "But I have a picture" she continues. She pulls out her phone and proceeds to show me the picture of Mr. Wonderful. I'm waiting with anticipation as she flips the phone around. "What's wrong?" she asks. The look of horror on my face is apparent. I can't stop staring at the picture. I then thought about my last relationship I always seemed to find emotionally unavailable men, but the last one was the doozy. I fell so hard, so fast I couldn't see straight. I pulled out all the stops, and did everything I could to make him mine, but he wouldn't commit to me. He was still crazy over his ex, but wanted to play house with me, without a title. The unofficial relationship lasted for 2 long years before I had had enough. We actually used to come to this very restaurant. It was our favorite. Being here now brings back a lot of painful memories, I guess that makes me a bit of a masochist. But not as much pain as when she showed me the picture of her boo. "My ex used to hold me just like that, as a matter of fact we took a picture just like that, he told me all I needed was this picture to remember that he loved me" I said. I glance at her and she has a look of confusion on her face. "My boyfriend told me that too" she said. She could see the hurt on my face. "That's him" I said. "Who? Is he here?" she asked. "No, in your picture. That's my ex" I said. "Impossible, your ex is gay, right?" she asked. "I thought so too" I said. "You're lying, stop that messy shit" she said. I pulled out my phone and showed her my version of the picture. And her face went pale. There he was, her Mr. Wonderful, and me in his arms.
"But you said he was awful, and wouldn't commit, that doesn't sound anything like Tony at all" she said. "Well, Antonio, was and apparently still is very manipulative. You got played. I'm sorry girl" I said. "I can't stand these faggots thinking they can take our men" she says out of no where. "Excuse me" I reply. "You heard me, I'm sorry it didn't work out, but he decided he wanted a woman, not someone pretending to be a woman, that's why he wouldn't commit to you. He's not a faggot" she said. "Bitch, he was a faggot when he ate this ass! He was a faggot when he asked me to fuck him! I'm sorry girl, your man is gay and you're a dumb ass bitch. I'm leaving, thanks for the drink and have fun with you and your faggot ass boyfriend. Don't forget to ask him how this ass tasted when you got home" I said. I picked up my keys and walked out....Bitch completely violated the G-code.....
It's 1:54PM, and I am patiently awaiting Christmas!!!! I'm so excited to see my family and the look on my niece's face when she opens her gift and ALL THE FOOD!!!! Y'all know I'm greedy. lol. So last week's Blog may have been a little in your face, so I'm a take the tone down a bit and just have an open discussion. Let's talk about the G-Code. We all know what the G-Code is. It's that code among friends that usually never has to be spoken. You just know. Let's get into it...
The most known rule of the G-Code is, you don't date your friend's exs. That's period. It's a universal No-No. If you think the ex is cute, you keep that shit to yourself and take it to the grave. Hos over bros, like for real. But there's levels to the shit. Even if it's just a crush, active boo, or work boo. You don't cross that line. When you know your friend likes someone, it should be automatic, there goes that one. Because is it really worth loosing a good friend over? Don't be Captain Steal-a-boo. That shit ain't cute. If your friend has a crush, then you indulge with them, not against them. Ain't no sharing biiii!!!!
But sometimes the shit gets tricky, just like the scenario above, sometimes you don't know it's an ex. Shit happens like that, what do you do? Do you expect your friend to dump Mr. Wonderful? Or can you put yourself aside and be happy for them? Before you answer that, flip it. Let's say you were dating Mr. Wonderful, would you give him up because he's your friend's ex? I think it depends on time. How long have you and the friend been close? How long have you been with Mr. Wonderful? I know that's contradicting but it's the truth. Sometimes the G-Code has to go out the window and you have to be selfish. Or just get the fuck over it. But situations like the one above will ruin a friendship, the outcome is never good. Because if your friend dumps Mr. Wonderful, they will resent you. They get to thinking what if he was the one? If they don't dump him, you probably won't be as close as you were. Especially if you bonded over discussing your personal relationships, that part of your friendship is over because you know you don't wanna hear about that shit. It's a bad situation either way. Just like the situation on Catfish with the friend and the baby daddy. They fell out in the end because that girl fucked Trez. I know she did! She said fuck the G-Code, sorry that's your baby daddy, but I'm lonely and I want the D. Sometimes, shit happens.
Another rule of the G-Code, is if you see your friend's spouse/lover/boo flirting and putting the mack down with someone else, YOU SPILL THE TEA!!! Yes bitch, you sing like a mutherfuckin Mockingbird!! No joke. Because I want to know. You pass the info and let them deal with it how they may. If you don't tell, that's a violation of the G-Code and your friend will be mad at you. It's a fact. Now let's take it deeper, what if you see your friend's spouse/lover/boo getting down with the same sex...Now this is a loop hole to the G-Code. Now this is a rule I violate every time. I don't care who you are, but I will NEVER tell my female friends if I see their guy with another man. It takes shit to another level. I had a friend that has been with numerous gay guys, and I will never tell her. EVER! To all my fellow gays, I'm telling you, it doesn't matter how many gay husbands, or gay friends she has, you tell a girl her man is fruity and shit will turn around on you. I'm telling you. I won't do it. Call me a bad friend or whatever, I'm down with anything else. But I ain't down with that!
Another rule, if your friend is getting jumped...well the mature thing is to call the police. But per the G-code, you jump in! Now I don't condone fighting, AT ALL. But if you're my bestie and I see you getting jumped, no bitch. I'm jumping in!! Unless it could ruin my reputation or something then girl you on your own. I love you and all but my family comes first. Just saying...But hopefully as grown ass adults, we won't be in that situation. But if it's verbal, HELL YEAH! I got you! Ain't nobody bout to bully my bestie! Get the fuck outta here with that shit! We gon read them bitches DOWN!
There are many rules to the G-Code, those are just a couple. There's the signal when it's time to go. Every friend has it. When y'all go somewhere and you know it's time to bounce, you give the signal and it's time to move. Or if you're dating, you give your friend the guy's info, just in case something pop off....But one of the most important rules is, when your friend is dealing with some shit and need to release....you're there. Whether it be phone, going out for a drink or just having a movie night. It's the most important rule of the G-Code. Be there. And THAT's keeping it 100
Saturday, December 12, 2015
Hello
To piggy back on my graduation. I must say, it is surreal. Because 4-5 years ago, I didn't think i'd ever get back in school, let alone graduate. And here I am, with the strength and encouragement of my husband. We motivate each other. Push each other. Us doing well in school, is not just for him, or me. But for US, our future, our kids, the life we want for each other. If the person you are with does not push you to achieve your maximum potential, I'll say it like this, you need to re-evaluate some things. Like seriously. Speaking of graduation, when I graduate I will be the FIRST of my siblings to graduate with a degree. THE FIRST! Not to say that they're not successful in their own ways, but I will be the first of my mother's children to go to college and get a degree. Imagine that, the youngest, the one that came late in life, taking it all the way. So why does it feel like it means nothing to my family? Why is it that my husband and I seem like the only ones excited about our graduation? My niece will graduate high school next June, a month after me, and that overshadows EVERYTHING. Don't get me wrong, anyone who knows me, knows I love my niece, that's my ride or die right there. It's not her, it's her mother and mine. They act as if my graduation means nothing. They talk about this BIG graduation party for her and wanted to include my little cousin who also graduates high school. But the first one to get a college degree is completely overlooked. Now at first, I felt some kind of way that I'm not being celebrated or even acknowledged, but then I realized. My husband is my cheerleader. He celebrates me and I do the same for him. Maybe it wasn't meant for me to be forgotten, or hell him too. But I'm tired of getting the shit stick when it comes to me and my marriage. Some people secretly hate you for what they have not achieved for themselves. Which brings me to my next thought...
Next month, in exactly ONE MONTH, I will be married ONE YEAR!! I look back at those memories and think about how happy I was and how stressed I was on who was coming and who was not coming. But the crazy thing is. My husband and I always say, the people that were meant to be there, were there. And I believe that. BUT...it sometimes bugs me that some people that have seen our relationship through good and bad, were not able to attend. Especially since, some of the people in the group picture we are not close with anymore. I will not name names, and this is not a bashing session or anything like that. But it's just odd that a person I wanted there, who I always wanted to be a part of my wedding, I don't even speak to anymore. I won't go into in detail, but even on my husband's side. Family is one thing, they're always gonna be there. But I've learned that friends really do come and go. Jealously...envy...whatever....It just means that they weren't meant to share in the rest of my journey. And I accept that. I still got my best friend, so what can I say, some friendships are meant to last forever, even if you don't speak every day.
Ok, what the fuck is up with all these damn bomb threats in our schools? Like for real. Everyone wanted to jump to the girl's defiance when she got yanked from her chair, but look at what kids are doing. Threatening to shoot up school parking lots, hacking schools, bomb threats. And Y'ALL don't think these kids today are out of control??? We are loosing grip, at what point is enough, enough? And that's all I'm a say about that for now.
And in closing, I saw The Wiz Live and um...y'all need to stop jumping on damn Raven Symone. Y'all always wanna talk about black people don't support each other, but as soon as someone has an opinion they're not supporting. GIRL BYE! No, BITCH BYE! I agree with Raven, I missed the "movie version" too. Notice I said movie version, because y'all quick to throw up that it was not the original. But most people DID NOT know that. So I agree, I miss Diana and Michael! It was the shit! I don't agree with everything Raven says sometimes but I'm a say what she can't say because she's on TV. GET THE FUCK OVER IT! It was good, but it wasn't ALL THAT! Queen Latifah almost fell and them vocals were not up to par, the Dorothy girl got on my damn nerves! And Mary was only an OK Evilene to me. And y'all know I love Mary. But...it was just ok. Ne-Yo did good, everyone did good. But it was just OKAY! I'm not on TV, so if you say something to me, I'm gonna say something back. And unlike her, I will tell you to get the fuck out of my face, if you coming with some bullshit!
So I think that just about sums up our catch up of random thoughts. I wanna say, I love all my supports, please keep spreading the word about me, and sharing and retweeting. All my overseas supports, Thank you! I just want everyone to love yourself enough to know your worth. Reach for your dreams and know that everything is possible. With hard work and determination, you can have what ever you want out of life. It's ok to make mistakes, it's not about the mistakes you make, it's about what you do after that defines you. There are gonna be many to doubt you, hate you, envy you, but you have to build and keep pushing forward. The past can only hurt if you let it. The only one that can stop your future is you. Let's step forward and keep it 100! Let's start repost, retweeting and letting people know you're 100! #keepit100 with #Therealmrclark, so everyone knows, this is some real shit and you're about that real shit, AND THAT'S KEEP IT 100!
Saturday, November 21, 2015
Girl Talk: Is he? Or Isn't he?
Well, Thanksgiving is less than a week away and I'm ready to EAT!! I'm so excited for the holidays. I'm just in a really blessed place, that's all I can say.
Anyway, as usually if you're offended by sex talk and profanity, you should check out last week's Blog instead. Because this is as clean as it gets... Because I'm about to dial it WAYYYYY up! Ok so let's get to it, ladies, you've been dating your man for a while now. We won't put a number on it because you feeling comfortable with a person, depends on you and there's no telling how long or soon that could be. But y'all are comfortable with each other. Communication is good. The two of you are progressing, and sex is good as well. He comes to you one day and say he wants to try some new things in the bedroom. You're immediate reaction is a bit apprehensive but you prob for him to explain further. After a few minutes, he admits he wants to try toys. So you agree, hoping he's just talking. A few weeks after having this conversation, he says nothing about it. You feel relieved because you think you've dodged a bullet. Because "something new" and "toys" could be ANYTHING. After all, you've read (or seen) 50 Shades of Grey. So over these few weeks, you've been sucking that dick a bit longer, doing it without hands, riding that dick like a porn star, instead of missionary. You even let him put it in the butt once. So you think you good and then he comes with a black bag. Now you're nervous, and he reminds you about the toys. Yep, sorry girl, not only does he remembers, but you took that doggy style for nothing. lol He pulls out a strap on. You're confused. He hands it to you and say, I want you to fuck me tonight.....What do you say next????
So to my gays, do you think that if a straight man wants dick in his ass, that he is gay?
And how about my ladies, is it gay for your man to want you to fuck him? Or eat his booty? Or hell, if he likes fucking you doggy style.
Now some people think that the answer is no, and I'm a tell you why. Some feel, sex is just that, SEX. What a man does sexually with his woman, does not define his sexuality. If he's not attracted to men, or want to have sex with men. Then he's not gay. After all, the definition of being Homosexual, is having an attraction for the same sex. And clearly he does not(...or so he says) He just wants you, his lady, to fuck him.
Some people say yes, because that is how gay men have sex. They do it in the butt. So if my man wants a dick in his butt, it's gay. Or hell, anything to do with the butt, he's gay. Some people feel it is an untapped area for a man and should remain that way. Ain't no grocery eatin biiii!!!! lol (A little ratchet humor)
I'm personally on the fence about this one. Yes I agree, there is nothing wrong with sexual freedom/expression. If he isn't attracted to men, then technically, no he's not gay. I know that's a hard pill for some to swallow (no pun intended) But that is the truth.
But even for my bottoms, if your top turns around and says, "Bae, I'm ready for that dick, I want you to top me. Let's not put limits on our sex life". Do you think he's as any less of a man or top? Don't be ashamed, flip flop that thing! 69 on that oral and take turns! You're so caught up in role playing, that we forget our relationships are not conventional, why be held down by the same standards of those who are not like us? I'm just saying. You can be straight bottom, but be open to the possibility that one day, you could be flip flopping. And sometimes it good too flip flop! Teach these tops what it's like! Some of them are so aggressive and have no mercy on the hole! But anyway, I'm getting off topic, lol
You know, there's a double standard here...why is that if a woman gets her coochie ate, or titties sucked on by a woman, she's not a lesbian because she's not attracted to women. But if a man gets a blow job from a guy, oh he's gay off rip. It's all bullshit to me. I wish we lived in a world where people could be themselves without judgement. It's stupid!
But we as society, even I'm guilty of it, put restraints on our sex lives because of what we believe to be "normal" and "acceptable". I'll be honest with you, I think it is a bit fruity for a straight man to want to be fucked. He may not be GAY, but that's a little suspect to me. I'm just saying, Every relationship has it's own thing, and sometimes you gotta roll with the punches. call me what you want. I'm a product of this world and I'm human. I WANT to believe in sexual freedom and blur the lines. I'm getting there, just not quite there YET, call me whatever, but at least I can keep it 100!
Sunday, November 15, 2015
LIVE!
So my question is, what is your form of fun? Maybe something no one else gets but you. But whatever it is, it makes you happy and excited!
When it comes to music, it is like my therapy. I feed off of it. When my day is bad, there is always a song that can turn my frown upside down. But what takes this feeling to the next level for me is to hear my favorite music LIVE! I'm talking about flashing lights, live band, background singers, and my favorite artists center stage! It is like an exhilarating experience! Some people will never understand my fascination with concerts. I’ve had people tell me it is a waste of time to go to concerts and I’ve also had people down play my sense of fun when it comes to them.
I'm like a kid in a candy store! Every moment counts for me! I love to get to the arena early, so I can enter the contests and play the games the radio stations have available. Most people don't know, that usually they give away Meet and Greets, upgraded seats and many other things. The music is fun, the atmosphere is positive, I love it! (Although I don't get to partake in these when I go to shows out of town, I'm always running late lol) Then entering into the arena is like another step forward. Everyone excited to see the show, people standing in lines to buy merchandise. I usually like to get a keychain or something, just to take something with me. Because let's be honest, them shirts and shit be too damn high! I can make my own!! lol Then you finally make it to your seat and look out at the arena, watching the people laugh and scramble to their seats, and the anticipation builds! You constantly watch you phone, checking the time. And before you know it, the lights are out and the opening act is being welcomed on the stage. Some more enjoyable than others, but once their gone, the real burning begins. The feeling that any minute the lights will go out and who you came to see will be right there, in the same place as you, performing YOUR favorite songs. Giving you a chance to experience them in a different way. Literally bringing the music to life. And before you know it, it's over and you're left with post-concert syndrome lol. Especially if it's one of your favs!
For me, I could even see my favorite artists more than once. Why would you wanna see the same person and show twice? People think that is a waste of time and money, well I disagree. First off all, let me break this down. Most artist, change their set lists from show to show. Otherwise, things could get a bit boring. Some think, big whoop, a few songs. No, it could be songs you really wanted to hear, maybe even your favorite songs, that could add a different dynamic to the show. And the energy is different from show to show. Like when I saw Beyonce and Jay-Z in Miami, it was the first show of the tour, everyone was so excited and didn’t know what to expect. The excitement was at a fever pitch! It was amazing. Then I went to the show in Atlanta and the experience was different. The people, the dynamic of the show, it was almost as if it was a different show. And especially if you have different seats in different areas. It’s like taking it in from a different view.
Me, I like to do it up! When I was younger I’d make posters and signs, but now I just make a shirt. And the more creative and fun my shirt is, it’s usually a shoe in to win prizes! I don’t think its childish, there are other fans that make shirts, signs and everything else and they are all ages. It’s fun! I love it when people are like, I love that shirt, where did you get it? And I respond, I made it! The time and energy that goes into it, makes it that much more memorable. It’s fun to be amongst other fans who just wanna have fun just like you do. It heightens the entire experience.
I have a friend that thinks I’m addicted to winning tickets to concerts, no, I’m addicted to concerts, period! Especially if I know the music. So if I find out an artist is coming and I enjoy some of their music, then I’ll try to pursue winning tickets. And in the meantime, I brush up on the artist to get to know their music! It’s SO fun being at a show, vibing with other fans who know the words just like you! I don't have an issue with that, and I don't understand why anyone else would either.
My biggest beef is when people are at a show and expect others in front of them to sit because they are sitting. It is a concert! You paid your money (or worked hard to win tickets) just like they did! If you want to sit, then sit, but don’t expect me too! I did that once, and I was miserable. AND it was a Beyonce concert, and y’all know I love my Bey. I vowed NEVER to do that again. I will dance, have fun, be silly and just let loose, because I can. And the only downside I would say is it's okay to not always have the best seats, but for those of us who has a fear of heights, sometimes it's hard to enjoy your fav when you can touch the ceiling of the arena...It's okay to be nosebleed sometimes, but when you're really into the music, you want to be able to enjoy it, without having a fear of falling.
I guess to make a long story short, it is not a waste of money to go to concerts, to see your favs twice, if it is something you enjoy! I’m not doing drugs, getting drunk, gambling, or paying off a hitman (no judgement for any of those things) I work hard for my money, so if that’s my pastime, why not let me enjoy what I love and how I want to enjoy it? Life is too short to let people tell dictate what you consider fun. Live your life, work hard and be happy! And that’s keeping it 100!
PS....My heart and prayers go out to the families in Paris. The world we live in is a dangerous place, and no matter if we've ever been at odds. We should all stand united against terrorism.
PS....My heart and prayers go out to the families in Paris. The world we live in is a dangerous place, and no matter if we've ever been at odds. We should all stand united against terrorism.
Saturday, November 7, 2015
New Year, New Me!
It's 2:39AM, and I'm tired as shit. I fought to stay up late and now I could just drop at any minute. The last week has gone by so fast for me, I can barely keep up. It seems just yesterday my husband and I were planning to see Taylor Swift last week. Then the concert was over (And amazing btw, hands down best concert of 2015) Then next thing I knew we were home and diving into homework. Also shout out to my brother in law who turned the big 3-0, this week!!! Woohoo!!!! lol And now, it's Friday morning...Fingers crossed...gonna try and win tickets to Mary tonight, but ANYWAYS....
I’m working on a pet peeve Blog, but this I HAD to write this.
Why is it that when we get into the last quarter of the year, people starting
yelling “New year, New ME!” I’m a be this next year, I’m a be THAT next! Bitch
please! The same tired ass shit you doing now, you’re gonna be doing next year
too! Let’s break this down…
So this goes hand in hand with New Year’s Resolutions...
My question is, why
do you have to wait for the impending New Year to change yourself? Why not
start now?
If you wanna try a different look, then try it! You want that new car? Then start planning and saving now! Educational goals? Plan now! Healthier eating and lifestyle? Start today! You don’t need a new
year to do something different with your life! Truth is, the longer you wait,
and the more unlikely you will be to stay consistent or follow through with
the change.
And then this one gets me even more. So when someone goes
through a negative experience, like a break up, loss of a job, etc. First thing
they hollering is, “I’m about to go back to school and do me”. LMAO. I don’t
mean to laugh, yes I do, but bitch, why does it take a man to leave you for you
to do you? Why does he have to leave for you to take your ass back to school???
School was nowhere on your mind when you were getting dicked down…why now?
And it never fails, it is like clockwork! I had a friend
that every single time something went wrong in their relationship, first thing
they rambled on is, “I’m a do me, I’m a get back in school, get me a car, and
I’m a be a bad bitch” And guess what….none of those things came to pass.
I have learned that it is all for show. People say shit on
Facebook because they think people care about what they’re doing and who/what they’re dealing with in a situation. I’m sorry hunny, nobody gives a fuck about
you "doing you". You’re gonna find another piece of dick to ride and forget all
about “doing you and getting back in school”. It’s the truth! People show boat
for Facebook. And we ALL know this! People hang their lives on Facebook, ups
and downs and arounds! And just so their “downs” don’t seem that bad, they sugar coat things and try to make a positive
outlook and say, I’m gonna do this or that. When truth is, nobody really cares. You're just putting your business out there for a bunch of haters who now have ammo to throw back at your ass when you piss them off. You wouldn’t have to prove anything
to people if you kept your shit off social media. If you really wanna set
goals, then set realistic short term and long term goals and stick with them.
Airing them out to Facebook is a waste of time and energy, no one cares, and if
they do, a lot of times they’re hatin and wish you will fail. Probably because either A) You say the shit
every other week or B) They’re envious. (but that’s a story for a different
Blog)
All I’m saying is, if you really want to change something
about yourself, make realistic goals and stick with them. And eventually you
will see your life change for the better. It’s not wrong to set goals for
yourself after something happens, but I’m sorry you can’t be a different you
every time a relationship ends or December 31st rolls around! Simply
put, it’s fake, and that’s keeping it 100!!!
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