Pet Peeve

It is 8:18 PM and I am sick as a dog! It has been a rough year for me so far. I know it has been a while since I've written and let me explain. Last month, I felt mentally out of it. I was uninspired, disconnected from everything and just in an all around funk! I retreated to myself and shut the world out. I didn't care about school, work, writing or anything. I felt disconnected from everything that mattered to me, including my marriage. Every time I opened my mouth to express how I felt, I felt even more silly. Because despite what I felt, I knew I had so much to look forward to and to be grateful for. When it came time for the Carrie Underwood concert, I woke up the day of and decided I was gonna force myself to be happy. All this year, I've been praying more and I knew it had to be the devil trying to steal my joy, literally. So as I tried to push myself out of a very negative space, the devil tried his best to cage me in. My birthday was...well it sucked. The entire weekend wasn't that bad though...but NOTHING went to plan. And then...I started to feel sick. And over the weeks of February, I've gotten worse. What they diagnosed as Bronchitis has apparently mutated. I don't know what the fuck I have right now, but I'm coughing, congested, body aches, extreme fatigue, nausea and on a good day I have a decent voice. No medicine is seeming to work, only suppressing the symptoms a bit. All this on top of maintaining work, school and a little bit of the house. (One had to go lol) So that's where I'm at right now. I'm looking forward to some MUCH NEEDED rest for my two off days. Believe me, my body needs it. I don't know how much more I can handle of this sickness. I never get sick, so this is a major blow for me.

But anyway, I know y'all have been waiting on what I'm gonna do next...For a second, I thought I was out of topics to write about. But while I've been "not at 100%", ya boy has been brain-storming and recharging the batteries. I got more juicy girl talks coming, some short stories I'm a throw in, Opening up the Ask Chris column and of course, I'm a keep it 100! So on my return, we're gonna keep it light-hearted and petty...

I've asked around because I wanted to get a good amount of feedback...What is your pet peeve? For those who doesn't know, a pet peeve is something that just grinds your fucking gears! It aggravates you to no end! We ALL have them...here are some of mine...

Ok, So I'm at the cash register paying for my meal. The cashier asks for my form of payment, I hand her my debit card. She wipes the card and then lays in down on the counter in front of me...This is my number one! I think it is so fucking rude if someone hands you something, IN YOUR HAND, that you lay it down in front of them. I dealt with this a lot when I worked at Blockbuster, the customer would sit the money on the counter and reach their hand out for the change...hell no! Yes I was petty as fuck about it. I even had one person, address me about it. I told them politely, I gave it to you how it was given to me. It's just rude people. Some people don't mean anything by it, but it doesn't change the fact that it's rude as fuck. I saw my husband do it today to a cashier and I was mortified!! I absolutely hate this, this is my BIGGEST pet peeve.

Another would be smacking! Like, close your mouth when you eat!! You're not a damn horse!!! UGH!! I also hate when you're on an elevator about to get off, and the person waiting to get one, walks in before you get off...What the FUCKK! It drives me crazy! That goes the same for stores too, if someone is leaving, as you're walking in, you let them out first then you go in! It's like the rule of thumb!!

I asked a few of my Honky Tonker members (my Luke Bryan group on Facebook) and a few of them said, control freaks, people who pop gum, and mean people. Someone also said, (and this is a good one) people who post vague shit to bait people to comment on their statuses. Y'all know the ones, the "I can't believe this happened" or "Today it's all over" Stuff like that! Now to keep it 100, I HAVE done this once or twice lol But it does aggravated me when people do it. You post these vague ass posts to get people to say "What's wrong" or "I'm here for You" GIRL BYE!! Take yo victim playing ass on somewhere...which was another pet peeve, people who play victim...

Other people I asked said things like, stupid people, bad drivers, people who stand too close to them in line and ignorant and closed minded people. I also heard another good one, Two-faced people! Or people who use bad grammar on Facebook. How the fuck are you going off on somebody, but you talking ignorant as shit. We all see it..."your a bitch ass no job on wellfare as ho. im a beat u ass, wen u get hear." You know, talking all kinds of fucked up. You're=You are. Your=belong to. I'm just saying.

I know some pet peeves can be petty, but who the fuck cares. When you have something that irks the fuck out of you, it doesn't matter what anyone else says. If they got a problem with it, tell em YOU'RE MY PET PEEVE BITCH lol Or how about frontin ass people. If you lame, stop frontin like you a boss! If you ridin in your mama shit, stop frontin like you on that shit. If you know that dick game ain't on point, stop frontin like you bout that life! If your kids want for anything, stop frontin like you a bad bitch! If you gay but frontin for the streets and your fam, get on some grown man shit and stop frontin' ol flip floppin ass mutherfucker! Keep that shit 100!

28

It's 12:37 PM and it a very cloudy Saturday afternoon. My husband is still sleep and I'm feining for a crab tray. WITH SOME NECK BONES!!!! BITTCCCCHHHHHHHH!!!!!! lol. But It's been a quick week. This is my birthday weekend, and to be honest it hasn't gone as planned. But I'm rolling with the punches. At this age, with everything else I've been through in life, you have too, right? Well first off let me say I'm sorry to my readers for being away so long. January was a rough month for me. I felt overwhelmed and uninspired. And for any writer that is an unhealthy combination. But I'm back and I'm working my way back to happy. So I have a few things to discuss, so grab you a cup of tea and let's get to it!!

I always get very reflective around my birthday. I think back on who I was and what I was doing a decade ago. So...10 years ago, I was 18, and in college. I ultimately failed that math class, and quite working at the Loop. I went back to work at McDonalds for a LONG 3 weeks and it was hell. The day I got hired at Blockbuster, I never went back to McDonalds. I got my license that summer and moved in with a friend at the time. That situation didn't work out, so I moved back home and continued to work at Blockbuster. That was the brief synopsis of my 18th year of life. But underneath all that, I thought I was grown. I developed at the time what I called a "grown state of mind". And I was still very immature. I was still believing I was Bi-sexual at the time and my confidence in myself was no where near what it is today. I was beginning to learn about Adam4Adam and BGC (BlackGayChat) and that was the beginning of me looking for love in the wrong places. I was looking for love within hookups and expected men to treat me and hold me to a standard that I didn't hold myself to. 18 was a year that I learned I knew nothing about myself and what I wanted or my potential. I was living for that moment, I didn't care about the future.

Now at 28, I have a whole different outlook on what's important and what I want out of life. I understand the value of myself. I know I have great potential when directed at something positive. I understand that I don't have to have EVERYTHING right NOW. It will take time and hard work to get the things I want. At 28, I'm more in love with myself than I have ever been in my life. I realize that friendships come and go, people aren't meant to stay in your life forever. People are unpredictable, all you can do is pray for them. Most importantly, at 28, I realize I'm still a work in progress. I'm still learning, still growing, still maturing, still discovering myself. At 18, I thought life had to be figured out by 25 but, 25 has come and gone and I'm still figuring things out. At 28, I'm learning to let things go and to not take things, people, time for granted. At 28, I'm indeed wiser but still growing.....

Sometimes it helps to reflect on the person you were before. People to judge me on that 18 year old boy. I'm not him. He's not dead, he just grew up. He became a 28 year old man, with passion, goals and dreams who takes a lot less shit lol. But enough with the heavy....

Are y'all ready for Superbowl Sunday???? I could give a shit less about the game, but I'm excited to see Beyonce hit the stage, it's been awhile. Word on the street, she'll be announcing at tour very soon. Here's to that!

Well, that's all I have for today. I hope everyone enjoys the weekend. Don't let the weatherman kick you in the balls like he did me. I think I'm about to go look into this crab tray!!! Thanks again for keeping it 100 with the Real Mr Clark!!!